esterday I started the day, took my cold shower and then went into town. I caught the bus for the first time – the non school bus. And I was in town. I felt great for the first time in a long time. I restarted my work and setup the footer for my site and even wrote the blog psot.
Then I went and had lunch and listened to classical music – and went into OnQ.
This is where the first big challenge came up – since I was told I could not be at OnQ for longer than an hour- which really affected me throughout the rest of the day and brought up a lot of rage in me and uncomfortability in me. As these feelings bubbled to the surface I was able to deal with them and not look up porn – and stayed sober throughout the whole day.
A win as far as my sobriety goes.
Yesterday I started working up at the temple, attached to a powerpoint – for the first time.
However it was once again a slow day – I didn’t get into town – it was raining and I had missed the bus. More distraction.
Yesterday I stayed sober for the entire day – I don’t even have a temptation to act out. And I setup 2 more PBN’s.
I’ve noticed just how much distractions I have from my work – that I will have to take care of. Moving around has been a distraction.
esterday the day started off with me looking up porn in the morning – the day was off to be a bad day. After I got up my irritation started playing up and my ego was in full control. However I recovered in the day and had a great day afterwards.
Not only did I do a lot of work afterwards – but I also had a healthy lunch (Hare Krishna) – and went into the shopping centre and had a very present state of mind – and did some PBN’s. I was very present and didn’t even masturbate at night time – despite looking up porn in the evening.
There were two tasks I did – and one other thing – I updated both clients at the end of the task rather than at the end of the day. This is a step in the right direction.
Anyway I setup the Visual Composer page for the classified client – and I did this by purchasing the VC – and I not only purchased it but also informed the client of it. And I figured this whole Visual Composer out on my own – and I did that by learning how to use it using a training video. Great job!
The next thing was the campaign finalisation – with setting up Mailchimp integration, requesting Mailchimp access and also requesting the PDF – and setting up a Facebook campaign split test! So that was awesome.
Regarding food I had an all you can eat Hare Krishna buffet and was very healthy. So that’s awesome.
One more thing – yesterday I did a video diary – and this was the 3rd day of creating a video diary – so that’s great.
Yesterday I woke up with rain pouring down hard – a perfect excuse to stay in bed. In fact that’s what I did – at least for a while. I stayed in bed – and missed the bus. And I could have used this as an excuse to continue to stay in bed – however I didn’t. Instead I got out – walked downstairs – and even though my food was eaten by someone (who knows who) – I still went out to the front of the village and started hitch hiking. Eventually I got a lift from someone and was in town.
As I was in town I caught a bus back only to have the bridge flooded.
Luckily there was someone who could take me back into town – and once I came back I was stuck between staying at the YHA and expanding. And I expanded! I took the bus over to the Gold Coast and booked a room on AirBnB – unfortunately I was not able to have the room confirmed – however I did book into a hostel where I had the room to myself.
And I stayed sober and ate good food.
One thing I should mention also is that I sent an email with a quote over to a client. So that is positive news.
Yesterday was another sober day away from porn. My sober days are piling up. And not only that but I also got work done yesterday and overcame my procrastination and sluggishness. This time I did not let myself get down on myself – instead I simply meditated looking outside looking at the trees and thinking about how they grow – and allowed myself to naturally fall back into the rhythm.
And I woked and enjoyed it.
It should be noted that while I was working I realised that some of the functionality on a site I was working on did not work because – and I had tested this – I used the Elementor plugin. After creating a staging site I not only realised what was going on – but I updated the client with the bad news and what I planned to do about it. This is a big step forward for me – to admit my mistakes and own them.
Also I fixed up the padding issue for the spiritual village website – so that’s awesome – it looks great – and I also added call to actions for both cabins and private rooms. Now the next step is to set up the split test :).
Stayed sober – overcame procrastination. Good work!
Yesterday I stayed sober for another day – and I overcame the inadequacy of not doing work. This is a big achievement – in the past this could have been a triggering situation for me. Also I put in my sponsor’s appointment into my phone which is great – and I attended that meeting this morning.